[ ... ]

You are far older than I will ever be. I do not know what dangers you have experienced in however many lifespans. [ but she knows not wanting to be weak and not wanting to show weakness. ] You have likely experienced worse than what you just did.

[ it is hard for her to be emotionally honest. it is difficult for her to connect. her caring as much a she does is against her better judgment. ]

But I do not want to feel this way again.

[ it is a selfish thing to say when she should not indulge in such selfishness. ]