[ the deaths were violent, but it would have been worse to see all of them bleed out and die one by one.

she looks thoughtful. ]

It is more difficult to watch people die, but I talk to those who are dead more than I do with those that are alive. [ she knows she doesn't have a normal view of things. ] Grief takes hold of people in various ways. I've witnessed it enough, but even I don't know how deep it go for some.