charles catchall

[ravenry]

the way my search only returns your art

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[riverbeans]

[I'M INNOCENT!!!!!!!!!! AND YET]

... I think that's still his secret to tell.

[ravenry]

[ you may be innocent but you cause yourself so much pain

she stares at him for a second. ]

Very well. Then, do you think how he acted had any resemblance to Scien, or do you think it had more to do with why you actively decide to spend lockdown together?

[riverbeans]

Well, we just decided to spend lockdown together because we're friends. [that, there wasn't a deep reason for.] So... your guess is as good as mine.

But I wouldn't be surprised if whatever triggered Scien might've... influenced Eunhyuk.

[ravenry]

[ she doesn't know what being friends means or what friendship entails, so this is going to go over her head a little that there isn't a deeper reason. she has no guess!! ]

If it is a pattern, I'll run out of feathers by the end of the tour.

[ ... ]

If he is your friend, will you be all right?

[riverbeans]

[...]

Everyone really keeps worrying about me over this...

[ravenry]

If people worry about me for being alone, why wouldn't they worry about you over this?

[riverbeans]

Haha... that's fair. [...] I'm not happy about this at all—about Viktor or about Eunhyuk—but it's not like anyone is. Eunhyuk was a well-liked guy.

[ravenry]

I don't think anyone likes to be left like this. Even if you accept it happening and even if you will be fine, it doesn't make it right.

[riverbeans]

It doesn't, no. Death hurts even if you're used to it.

[ravenry]

Because it is you that has to live out your life and not anyone else.

[ her voice is quiet, but it sounds like she's quoting someone more than saying it herself. ]

[riverbeans]

Mm. ... It's the duty of the living to carry on and make the dead proud.

[ravenry]

[ you want to trigger her so bad. she shuts her eyes again. it's never been about making them proud for her. ]

If that is a reason for people to do better, there are worse reasons out there.

[riverbeans]

[I'M SORRY UNFORTUNATELY CHARLES HAS CANON THOUGHTS ABOUT THIS]

Well, in the end, all we can do is live our lives the best we can regardless.

[ravenry]

[ don't be sorry they will either have better or worse cr for their thoughts on death and life ]

What kind of life is that for your, Charles?

[riverbeans]

Hm...

[looks like he's thinking about it]

Well, I'd say my wishes are simple. I want to be happy, and I want those around me to be happy as well, through the paths they choose for themselves.

[ravenry]

[ that's a nice thing to want to be. happy for charles to want this. ]

What if you don't agree with those paths?

[riverbeans]

Depends on how much I disagree with it, I guess. I'll fight them if I have to.

[ravenry]

Isn't that tiresome?

[riverbeans]

Sure, it is. I'd love to not have to disagree with people. [...] But I'll keep on fighting for the future for however long I have to.

[ravenry]

[ she doesn't know if she can understand this or if she could want this, too, but she's been faced with too many new perspectives lately. it may be against what she was raised to do, but what can she do now that she's here? ]

You have a strong outlook for the future. All I can do is live my present one day at a time, one night at a time.

[riverbeans]

[...]

Hey, even that is enough. Sometimes, I'm just trying to get through the day too.

[ravenry]

[ she doesn't think it should be relatable even though she knows it is. ]

I would like tomorrow to be uneventful.

[riverbeans]

... I'd like that too.

[even if, well. doubt.]

[ravenry]

Will you burn more feathers with me tomorrow?

[ although she hopes it will stay to one.... she is also full of doubt. ]

[riverbeans]

[he nods]

If you'll have me, then of course.