Scien told us our bodies here are made of memory, and the.... CEM waves affect memories or can hold memories... or that's what that journal said. I want to see if I can understand more.
Lucien asked about how to bring us back, but we don't have much information on how.
[ she is not going to understand more, but she can pretend. ]
Ah. "Many researchers stated that a combination of CEM waves, if dense enough, can create a field that could alter the fabric of reality."
[ ...quoting another article he read, and can barely comprehend himself. space tech is sooo beyond him, and he nods in agreement when she mentions they don't have much information right now. ]
If there are related documents here, that would be helpful.
[ he continues to browse the opposite shelves... and after a moment of that, ]
Shouxue, you're not obligated to answer me. But are you feeling recovered from Thursday...?
[ that was only a few days ago. he didn't get any of the details, but he imagines it was. very bad for her. ]
...I'm sorry. Those are difficult emotions to bear. [ WE MISSED MEMSHARE WEEK NOOO but he understands what it is like to be consumed by those feelings. ]
Is there anything here that can help take your mind off things?
[ HELP!! unfortunately, this is a little too vague of a question for him, since he's actually considering it at face value. ]
...It's difficult to say. I'm fond of so many of you, for different reasons.
[ especially during affection week. ]
I don't know what lies in our future, but it is sad to think we may not be able to see each other again after all this. After all we've been through together.
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she is looking for a book on CEM waves cosmoelectrowhatever - i'm too lazy to look up the actual term. ]
I'm still looking, but I don't know how much I'd understand.
[ she isn't a genius, just smart enough to put clues together for ghost mysteries. ]
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What do you need?
[ he'll help her look, though, probably to the same end result... ]
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Lucien asked about how to bring us back, but we don't have much information on how.
[ she is not going to understand more, but she can pretend. ]
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[ ...quoting another article he read, and can barely comprehend himself. space tech is sooo beyond him, and he nods in agreement when she mentions they don't have much information right now. ]
If there are related documents here, that would be helpful.
[ he continues to browse the opposite shelves... and after a moment of that, ]
Shouxue, you're not obligated to answer me. But are you feeling recovered from Thursday...?
[ that was only a few days ago. he didn't get any of the details, but he imagines it was. very bad for her. ]
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[ the way she doesn't think it's impossible. she just doesn't know how to get there.
she her hand still on the spine of a book. ]
I am healed.
[ physically, she is fine. all she has are scars from being revived, no open wounds or any remaining bruises or anything. ]
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[ par for the course. ]
...In body, perhaps.
[ he puts a gentle hand on her shoulder. ]
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[ she has no optimism in her tiny body, but if there is some foundation in what people have found, she doesn't need optimism.
when he puts a hand on her shoulder, she turns around and hugs him. ]
It made me very tired.
[ existentially. ]
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[ ...to be honest all of this is already pretty insane to begin with. what is one more insane thing.
—but, ah. he returns the hug, holding her tight. ]
Will you be all right?
[ he thinks she's too young for that sort of weariness, but also understands she's no stranger to it. ]
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[ she's been emotionally volatile the past three or four days, and it's wearing her out.
she presses her face into his chest, so her words come out a bit muffled. ]
It's been a little too much grief and anger.
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he strokes her hair gently. ]
...I'm sorry. Those are difficult emotions to bear. [ WE MISSED MEMSHARE WEEK NOOO but he understands what it is like to be consumed by those feelings. ]
Is there anything here that can help take your mind off things?
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It will be fine. Being with you helps.
[ she missed diluc so much, more than she wants to say even with affection week burgeoning her. it stirs a lot of complicated emotions.
her hold on him tightens a little. she isn't a clingy person, but she wants to cling onto him for a small moment. ]
There are too many labs. It's more suited to others.
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...I hope they've been useful, at least.
[ gazes at the silly little og deadzos running their silly little tests.
anyway, more looking around for CEM materials! before it's finally time to take a break again ]
We can go elsewhere, if you'd like.
[ shouxue u aren't beholden to my rng ]
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she sighs. ]
I realized their experiment was on memories because our bodies here are made of memories, but they could have caused less alarm.
[ when one of the early things they found out was the senior crew had memory issues?
she didn't want to be worried about scien brofise? he's annoying. ]
We can go to the gardens.
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Dahut told me the same.
[ that the dead are just pieces of data—memories...
anyway, off they go!!!! to the gardens. maybe there she can try and get the forbidden ship deets out of diluc. ]
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they are at the gardens with some flesh hanging out in the trees if you blink and mysterious voices every now and then. it's still very pretty. ]
... Who are you going to miss the most, Diluc?
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...It's difficult to say. I'm fond of so many of you, for different reasons.
[ especially during affection week. ]
I don't know what lies in our future, but it is sad to think we may not be able to see each other again after all this. After all we've been through together.
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especially since what diluc says is going to make shouxue a little emo. she struggles to have any words to reply with. ]
I don't want to think about that quite yet. [ this is a lie. she thinks about it more than she likes. ]
Of those still living, who will you miss talking to most?
[ being here instead of there is what she means, but he can interpret it towards what he said. ]>
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Mm. We don't have to.
[ they still have some time left here, for better or worse.
he considers her next question. ]
Perhaps Shoma, or Charles. Shoma is always inquisitive and thoughtful. And though I do not know Charles as well, his presence is grounding.
[ so it's not necessarily the conversations themselves, or even closeness to the person in question, but how he feels overall around those people. ]
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at least she doesn't have to judge diluc's tastes. he remains her favorite. ]
I liked talking to both of them, too. More than a lot of the others.
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thank you for not judging him babygirl... he's safe for another week 🥺
he smiles faintly ]
The others aren't so bad, once you get to know them. But what about you? Is there anyone you're particularly missing...?
[ me like. is it owner. help. ]
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Stress and tension bring out the worst in people. [ she has been angry at so many people because of how they acted in the last half hour of trial. ]
It was you, most of all.
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[ (checks the date, thank god it's still affection week for this.)
he reaches over to hold her hand gently. ]
...I've missed you as well. Thank you for thinking of me.