[ ghostlike is alarming for someone who already died and bloomed in lotuses. it takes her a moment to realize this is likely an effect, and she hacks up a lung in flowers as she takes all of this and what he asks in. ]
.... Dahut and Scien's island? [ oh, she doesn't like this. ] It is not.
[ she comes closer to him and reaches for one of his hands. she doesn't like how his gaze keeps on going vacant. ]
I do not know about supposed to be. [ because she doesn't think any of them are supposed to be here. ] But I am relieved this is where you are right now.
[ maybe that's a better question. he's asking what his reality is supposed to be. he's cycling through multiple lifetimes, trying to find the one that actually belongs to him. ]
[ she grabs hold of one of his hands, as a confirmation. ]
... The Diluc I know did not live in Arpéchéle. He lives in a world with a vineyard, with a hill that overlooks some of the most beautiful scenery I've seen. He wishes to see it again.
He is sure in what he knows and what he wants, and he can be as angry and determined as any raging fire.
... I am here, and I am still struggling to be fine with some people because you are here.
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Re: W6 THURSDAY
.... Dahut and Scien's island? [ oh, she doesn't like this. ] It is not.
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[ he blinks. and then slowly nods. ]
...That's right.
[ ...this is shouxue. for better or worse, he did recognize her immediately upon exiting the void. ]
...I'm sorry I alarmed you.
[ not a question. an understatement, if anything. ]
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[ that is an understatement. ]
... Were you memories altered while there?
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They were.
[ he frowns, gaze going vacant again for a moment. processing another memory from another time and place. ]
...Is this where I'm supposed to be?
[ it's difficult to be sure. ]
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I do not know about supposed to be. [ because she doesn't think any of them are supposed to be here. ] But I am relieved this is where you are right now.
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[ maybe that's a better question. he's asking what his reality is supposed to be. he's cycling through multiple lifetimes, trying to find the one that actually belongs to him. ]
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... The Diluc I know did not live in Arpéchéle. He lives in a world with a vineyard, with a hill that overlooks some of the most beautiful scenery I've seen. He wishes to see it again.
He is sure in what he knows and what he wants, and he can be as angry and determined as any raging fire.
... I am here, and I am still struggling to be fine with some people because you are here.
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...I did— [ live in a world with a vineyard. ] I do.
[ mondstadt returns to him in fragments of color, the city and the winery. of all his memories, these are the most compelling and anchoring. ]
You don't need to. Not on my behalf.
[ he gives her hand a light squeeze. clarity continues to return in increments. ]
...Thank you, Shouxue.
[ he thinks he has a better idea who he's supposed to be, now. ]
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I do not need to, but I can't control how I feel. I... do not know what I would do, if you did not remember our time until Saturday.
[ she doesn't want to consider if it would hurt more than watching him die in front of her. ]