[hi... charles is pacing around, his emotions a rumble of grief and shock and guilt in the background. he does not believe in repression because that's unhealthy, though he does look calmer than he feels, at least.
[ reading this from a jan character is wild. love this for you.
meanwhile, there is a little surprise at what he says but otherwise, shouxue is feeling mostly fine. not great but not terrible. she looks more or less how she feels. ]
You don't have to smile around me. The message was....
[ not great. bad. terrible. it is hard for her to find the words. ]
[ everyone grieves differently. she isn't going to judge when she's seen a full spectrum. ]
... At least you can find a reason to smile. [ she doesn't exactly wish that were her, but she sort of wishes that were her. ] Two is still a lot. [ considering how many of them there are. ] Do you think we'll find out what happened?
[ will they be told anything? (no, but she doesn't know that yet.) ]
... It's hard to say for sure. It could've been—I suspect Luke had health issues already. But I can't actually conclude that it was natural and there wasn't anything external triggering them.
Observation deck. Dahut was there too, along with a lot of other people. [...] The only unusual thing was that we were experiencing pains the entire time we were locked in, but... those were coming from Luke, it seems.
He and I were standing guard at the door together when we were locked in, so I noticed he was feeling worse. Didn't seem like he wanted to people to know, though, so I kept quiet.
[wasn't worth watching him die for. but it's not helpful to think like that.
anyway the takeaway here is that privacy is overrated, actually?]
[ privacy is overrated!!! wish shouxue would agree.
she frowns. ]
You were trying to respect his wishes. It's not like you knew. It is a regret now, but it doesn't have to be a regret in the future. What would you say to him, if you could see him again?
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when he sees shouxue, he manages a weak smile.]
Glad you're okay.
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meanwhile, there is a little surprise at what he says but otherwise, shouxue is feeling mostly fine. not great but not terrible. she looks more or less how she feels. ]
You don't have to smile around me. The message was....
[ not great. bad. terrible. it is hard for her to find the words. ]
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[as callous as it might sound. he's grieving, but he's not someone who needs that much time for it.]
Besides, I really am glad to see everyone else okay, so that's worth smiling over.
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... At least you can find a reason to smile. [ she doesn't exactly wish that were her, but she sort of wishes that were her. ] Two is still a lot. [ considering how many of them there are. ] Do you think we'll find out what happened?
[ will they be told anything? (no, but she doesn't know that yet.) ]
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Luke, I have some guesses for, but how Dahut died is a completely mystery.
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... Was that them last night, trying the override? I'll investigate, if it comes to it, but... why do you say that about Luke?
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You saw him die? It... Was it natural?
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Where were you two last night? Nothing out of the ordinary happened before he left us, did it?
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[they stopped when he died.]
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I hope it is only a coincidence that both Luke and Dahut were in the same room last night. I am sorry you and the others had to feel that.
[ what were likely his dying pains.
i am sorry luke had to feel that at all. ]
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[well, i wish he wasn't dead at all.]
... Actually, I wish he'd said anything at all about his condition, if he had one, but I know that's an unfair thought to have.
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[ even if my reasons would be different. ]
There are many things easier left unsaid, and... he seemed like the type who didn't want to worry others.
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[sure wish i had, though—but no point in that now.]
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What did you want to say?
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He and I were standing guard at the door together when we were locked in, so I noticed he was feeling worse. Didn't seem like he wanted to people to know, though, so I kept quiet.
[wasn't worth watching him die for. but it's not helpful to think like that.
anyway the takeaway here is that privacy is overrated, actually?]
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she frowns. ]
You were trying to respect his wishes. It's not like you knew. It is a regret now, but it doesn't have to be a regret in the future. What would you say to him, if you could see him again?
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You aren't the only one who feels that way.
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