[ so she wasn't hurt, though someone she cared for was injured in her place. (also ara i am so sorry i have such poor understanding of this canon. diluc should be smarter please do not blame him for my ooc failings...) ]
What happens when you fully become the Raven?
[ he does not understand how it's supposed to bring salvation to her people, only that it is costing her her life. ]
[ it's okay. shouxue doesn't really talk about her deep lore much because it's a point of contention for her, so if he doesn't fully understand, it's on her. he was right in the other thread that she is kind of cursed, but she doesn't know it yet at her canon point. ]
I'm not sure. I don't know if any of the previous Raven Consorts have ever fully become her. Perhaps it is because humans cannot fully become gods? But the goddess will likely find and choose a new Raven Consort eventually.
[ his hands move to gather hers between his own. heat radiates through his palms. ]
...What is it that you need?
[ to save yourself? to save your loved ones?
a way to separate souls? a way to slay a goddess? (self-acceptance, perhaps, but her guilt had not been entirely palpable to him when they spoke of this in the week prior.)
...she had said it was enough that he cared. he doesn't agree. ]
[ she looks at their hands, and her emotions tremble. she feels fragile, as diluc's warmth seeps into her and exposes all the cracks in her heart.
shouxue desperately wants to be saved and cry for help. a part of her wants to scream for it. a part of her would do anything to no longer be the raven consort. she would quit, if she only felt like she could, but the largest part of her, the one who's lived this life for so long, the part that's been resigned, the part that wants to atone thinks:
[ by virtue of affection week, he'll draw her in again for a hug, arms wrapping protectively around her slight frame.
she deserves better. whether she can hear his thoughts or not, his feelings are obvious, stubbornly so. there's the familiar flicker of anger too, quiet but heated, at the injustice of it all. ]
Why wouldn't it be?
[ nothing has been fair.
she's just a child. if anyone deserves to be saved, to be granted a chance at a real life, it is shouxue. ]
[ she's silent in his arms for a small while. she doesn't know how to answer him or if she wants to answer him at all, but if there is anyone who could elicit some honesty from her, it's diluc. ]
To... to those before me.
[ to the raven consorts who could never be free and saved, to li niang, the previous raven consort who raised shouxue, taught her everything she knew, and loved her enough that she could feel human again.
her guilt hangs heavy. ]
Nothing has been fair, but how can I decide to....
[ how could she possibly make the decision to try to free herself? ]
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[ so she wasn't hurt, though someone she cared for was injured in her place. (also ara i am so sorry i have such poor understanding of this canon. diluc should be smarter please do not blame him for my ooc failings...) ]
What happens when you fully become the Raven?
[ he does not understand how it's supposed to bring salvation to her people, only that it is costing her her life. ]
...Are you in pain, now...?
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I'm not sure. I don't know if any of the previous Raven Consorts have ever fully become her. Perhaps it is because humans cannot fully become gods? But the goddess will likely find and choose a new Raven Consort eventually.
[ ... ]
I do not feel pain unless there is a new moon.
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[ his hands move to gather hers between his own. heat radiates through his palms. ]
...What is it that you need?
[ to save yourself? to save your loved ones?
a way to separate souls? a way to slay a goddess? (self-acceptance, perhaps, but her guilt had not been entirely palpable to him when they spoke of this in the week prior.)
...she had said it was enough that he cared. he doesn't agree. ]
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shouxue desperately wants to be saved and cry for help. a part of her wants to scream for it. a part of her would do anything to no longer be the raven consort. she would quit, if she only felt like she could, but the largest part of her, the one who's lived this life for so long, the part that's been resigned, the part that wants to atone thinks:
i don't deserve to. ]
... I can't say. It wouldn't be...
[ fair. ]
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she deserves better. whether she can hear his thoughts or not, his feelings are obvious, stubbornly so. there's the familiar flicker of anger too, quiet but heated, at the injustice of it all. ]
Why wouldn't it be?
[ nothing has been fair.
she's just a child. if anyone deserves to be saved, to be granted a chance at a real life, it is shouxue. ]
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To... to those before me.
[ to the raven consorts who could never be free and saved, to li niang, the previous raven consort who raised shouxue, taught her everything she knew, and loved her enough that she could feel human again.
her guilt hangs heavy. ]
Nothing has been fair, but how can I decide to....
[ how could she possibly make the decision to try to free herself? ]