He looks very much like he wants to accept this and move on, to put all of this behind him so that she doesn't have to worry anymore--but he opens his mouth, and once again, he can't hold back his words.]
I couldn't save anyone. [Worse than that--] I didn't see anyone but her.
[And then just lost his mind and went feral about it because he loves his game CR a lot but there's a huge difference between that and someone he's been in love with for almost his entire life. But it still feels like shit now that he's back with them, looking at their faces and knowing he didn't spare them a second glance.]
[ it's a sign for how strongly luke loves. it isn't bad necessarily, shouxue thinks, not in the way she thought it was for nodd or brad, but it is as blinding.
he admits as much. he can reflect and recognize. ]
Your ties to her are stronger. I wouldn't ask you not to choose her.
[It's such a complicated thing. He would never be ashamed of his love for Rosa, a devotion that constitutes so much of his will to live--it's that very love that allowed him to have a tad more patience for people like Nodd and Bradley than many others, up until their feelings put everyone else in danger and caused unnecessary suffering. (Luke is a hypocrite, after all.)
There is no world in which he wouldn't have chosen Rosa, even if he'd been coherent enough to actually make that decision. But that doesn't lessen his guilt now that he's calmer; it doesn't make it any easier to believe he did what he could, when he's so convinced--]
I should've been able to save you too. I'm afraid I won't be able to get you home.
[This is definitely very normal behavior from him. He's turned over a new, honest leaf!!!]
[ shouxue looks into the distance. she thinks these cyoa effects are so annoying.
she gathers herself, to keep herself from walking away, because she doesn't know if she can talk to him like this? he likely won't hear any sense, if he's so convinced. ]
I don't need you to get me home. I only need you to get yourself home.
[ she knows the likely ramifications and implications of what happened by what he's saying and she thinks it is horrible, but she hopes he doesn't continue to say things like that.
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she doesn't seem too upset about not being saved, but she is surprised she was there. ]
It's all right, Luke. I don't know what happened, but I'm all right.
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He looks very much like he wants to accept this and move on, to put all of this behind him so that she doesn't have to worry anymore--but he opens his mouth, and once again, he can't hold back his words.]
I couldn't save anyone. [Worse than that--] I didn't see anyone but her.
[And then just lost his mind and went feral about it because he loves his game CR a lot but there's a huge difference between that and someone he's been in love with for almost his entire life. But it still feels like shit now that he's back with them, looking at their faces and knowing he didn't spare them a second glance.]
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he admits as much. he can reflect and recognize. ]
Your ties to her are stronger. I wouldn't ask you not to choose her.
[ she wouldn't expect anything else. ]
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There is no world in which he wouldn't have chosen Rosa, even if he'd been coherent enough to actually make that decision. But that doesn't lessen his guilt now that he's calmer; it doesn't make it any easier to believe he did what he could, when he's so convinced--]
I should've been able to save you too. I'm afraid I won't be able to get you home.
[This is definitely very normal behavior from him. He's turned over a new, honest leaf!!!]
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she gathers herself, to keep herself from walking away, because she doesn't know if she can talk to him like this? he likely won't hear any sense, if he's so convinced. ]
I don't need you to get me home. I only need you to get yourself home.
[ she knows the likely ramifications and implications of what happened by what he's saying and she thinks it is horrible, but she hopes he doesn't continue to say things like that.
she needs to be a better person. ]
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I'm never going to see her again...
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what kind of effect did they give you ]
Why do you think this?
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We'll be stuck here... with the rats...
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[ shouxue doesn't know it's called the grinder, and she refuses to call it what dahut does. ]
Do you think it'll fail?
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And then I'll never see her again... ever...
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this is a struggle. it's a struggle. ]
There is no guarantee for anything in life.
[ time to be nihilistic in her struggle. ]
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He seems to get distracted contemplating this]
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or he says something that will annoy her enough that she will up and leave. ]