in her experience of a great many sixteeen years, she has her own conclusions that have no substantiation. ]
The distance between us is closer than expected. The dead, or not quite dead, aren't usually close enough to interact like that. New ghosts don't usually have that much sway.
They're not real, where I'm from. [At least, he's never seen convincing proof otherwise, outside of his nightmares. More than once, he's wished otherwise, for so many reasons.] So all of this--it's a little hard to get used to.
[ it took a lot for her to adjust to the ship and its technology. the different cultures were also something to wrap her mind around.
what's real and isn't is hard to grasp, but maybe what will help make it more real is a memory.
it's not a moment shouxue is proud of. losing herself to anger because her lady-in-waiting was in danger took her by surprise. the emotion that swelled was almost too much for her, and it scared her once she calmed down, how she almost couldn't register anything more than that heat and darkness of her fury (of a fury that might not have only been her own). ]
[This isn't the first memory Luke's seen with elements wildly beyond what exists in his world. Even so, he's taken aback by it all--by the power of Shouxue's fury, by the potency of her magic. In a minute, he'll be back to himself, and this new side of her will slot into place in his understanding of who she is; for now, he's caught up in it, watching everything happen.
When it ends, he looks to Shouxue first, wanting to make sure she's okay.]
[ she is fine even if she's not happy about that memory. it was an alarming moment for her, not knowing how protective she could get, not realizing how much she came to care for someone, not knowing she could lose herself to her emotions like that.
she looks at luke with a pinched but tired expression. ]
Say anything you like.
[ there's no point in pretending it didn't happen. ]
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Me too. I'm not sure what that says.
[If it's good for their side, or bad for the living, or if it means nothing at all.]
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in her experience of a great many sixteeen years, she has her own conclusions that have no substantiation. ]
The distance between us is closer than expected. The dead, or not quite dead, aren't usually close enough to interact like that. New ghosts don't usually have that much sway.
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...You have experience with ghosts, right? [Judging by her execution, and by the bits and pieces of what he's heard people say.]
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[ it took a lot for her to adjust to the ship and its technology. the different cultures were also something to wrap her mind around.
what's real and isn't is hard to grasp, but maybe what will help make it more real is a memory.
it's not a moment shouxue is proud of. losing herself to anger because her lady-in-waiting was in danger took her by surprise. the emotion that swelled was almost too much for her, and it scared her once she calmed down, how she almost couldn't register anything more than that heat and darkness of her fury (of a fury that might not have only been her own). ]
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When it ends, he looks to Shouxue first, wanting to make sure she's okay.]
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she looks at luke with a pinched but tired expression. ]
Say anything you like.
[ there's no point in pretending it didn't happen. ]
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It's nothing. I was just a little surprised--I've never seen you like that before.
[Unless she had a huge public meltdown that I missed, not counting execution. Which, speaking of--]
But it makes sense. You're a very caring person.
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she has to look away. ]
It was the first time I ever... was like that. It was the first time I didn't know if I was myself or not.
[ it was her, but her mind had blanked after she felt a chill that someone was in danger because of her.
it had been a long while since she had someone around to care for or about. ]
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But his expression softens in sympathy, and he nods, understanding.]
That must've been frightening, afterward.
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[ she didn't have time to process it until a lot later. ]
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What did that entail?
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