...There's a disease back in my home that transforms people into monsters. I caught it a few days ago back in my world. It's linked to excessive emotions. People who can control theirs last longer than those who can't.
I've always been good at controlling my emotions, so I thought I had a chance.
[ but... it doesn't feel right to just eject him even if he is a danger. it's not the most logical or rational thought, and she shouldn't care about this as much as she does, but she can't help the way she feels. ]
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I haven't fully transformed yet. The nosebleed... It's a sign that it's getting worse. I'm still violent.
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[ ... ]
What do you mean by that?
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I've always been good at controlling my emotions, so I thought I had a chance.
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You think your chance has run out. What happens if you are turned into a monster?
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I'll become stronger than everyone here. Faster. And I'll trick one of you to come down here and let me out. Say that I'm fine. Lie.
I don't know what I'll look like. Every monster is different.
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[ because if he looks different, it'll be harder for him to trick others. ]
I don't know if anyone can let you out outside of the senior crew.
[ but then again, with what happened to scien.... that also isn't a guarantee. ]
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[so he doesn't know for sure, he could really become body horror but also... well, he's not sure if he wants to take that chance.]
I'm not sure either. But... I don't trust this ship.
[it's always felt like a third party to him, even now]
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[ but... it doesn't feel right to just eject him even if he is a danger. it's not the most logical or rational thought, and she shouldn't care about this as much as she does, but she can't help the way she feels. ]
Do you want to live, Eunhyuk?
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I do.
[...]
And I don't.
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